The Insecure Inner ChildI don't like to admit it, but im scared. Of everything.Of leaving my friends and family, of losing them and losing myself. I like being the one in control, knowing what needs to be done and being able to do it, lately i havn't felt like i can do that.What can you say to a friend who needs help, when deep down you know you need help too. Its easy to just forget and just pretend your okay, but it just takes one person to break through the mask and it all spills out. How can you control your life when you still feel like a scared little child. How can you achieve anything when it seems like everyone is better than you?This life is just a big game, play by the rules of the people above you and you can't go wrong, thats what they say, but they never mention that in playing by their rules, you often have to compromise your own. Things are rarely ever win win.But what of the people who can't play by the rules, who are so strong willed that it crushes who they are to follow the rules of ot
The Irreversability of DarknesNo matter what anyone says, this life is hard, and it hurts and it is cruel. No one believes in you untill you prove yourself. And sometimes, the most threatening force of all is your own mind.Peoples doubts are contagious, they spread like a disease and if you happen to become infected with doubts of your own self worth then the virus spreads, from inside to out, crushing even the strongest dreams.It feeds on hope and enthusiams untill you no longer feel hungry, no longer feel excited, untill it becomes a chore just to continue breathing. And it is then that thoughts of ending it all creep in, telling you you'd be better off to just stop, that they'd all be better off if you just stopped, and oh what a dark time it becomes. Feining interest and joy so that the disease isn't spread but at the same time regarding yourself with hatred and feeling hopeless and lost.Laughing becomes a hollow task, a practiced art, making others believe your happy while secretly wishing you could tell th
A DreamA dream is a drama, a book without wordsa gift from the heavens, a song from the birdsA dream is a lifetime, unseen and untoldof mystery and magic, of worlds we unfoldA dream is a secret, snatched up, locked awaythoughts kept for them moonlight, and not for the dayA dream is a sign, like the beat of a drumof things that have been, and of things still to comeEach dream is important in its own special wayand for each dream, a star lights the night after day
Hidebroken heartsshattered dreamsmoonlit shadowswhispered screamsclose your eyesand hide your heartas all the worldjust falls apart
Remeberi know its hard, it hurts a lot, it often makes you sadbut i'm here to tell you that not all this life is badand sure its mostly painfull, each day seems filled with greybut think of all the happy things for they make it okso take it with a grain of salt, just let it off your chestthe bad days they will pass you by, they're more than all the restbut what will you remember, when you are grey and old?The speckeling of happiness, adventures bright and boldThe days you spent with family, the fun you had with friendsThe times your world seemed filled with sun, no dark side round the bendSo while at times its difficult, annoying and just dullthe key to finding happiness, is trying to have fun
Longingimagine if you will, a world of which i knowwhere snow flakes lace the tree tops, the ground below a glowyou'd never see it coming, you'd never understandthis would you see is dying, the sun, the sea, the sand.its winter here forever, or at least it feels that wayso long without the sunshine, the warming touch of daybut by all means enjoy it, this winter wonderlandand while we die i'll sit and cry, longing for sun, sea and sand.
Lost in the seasonsgolden sunsilver cloudswhispered thoughtserase the hoursflowing springsdrizzled rainssummer sunerase the daysbackward,forwardforward, backalways onthis broken track
DenialHold me closeand pull me nearand say the wordsi long to heari'll smile and blushi'll pretend that its truejust please, one last timesay that you love me too